Freelancer seesaw: I can do it; I can’t do it

So it’s been around 7 months since I started freelance writing. I knew that this path wasn’t going to be easy, but it still surprises me how much I can emotionally seesaw these days. I’ll feel a determined I can do it! I am gonna conquer this thing! Rar! Then, I’m like, huhuhu I can’t do it. I failed. I can’t accept failure. I have to admit it. Huhuhu..then nooooo rar!

I guess this is just normal. I’m still figuring things out and adjusting to many things. Instead of constantly panicking, I wish I could stay focused on how exciting uncertainty is. I wish I could stay focused on trying to figure out a new way of doing things. I wish I could stay focused on exploring and expanding my life. Most of all, I wish for the seesawing to stop.

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