As I said in this post, one of my fantasies is to do whatever the fuck I want for an entire year. So, the plan is to work for five years then fuck off for one year, then work for five years again, then fuck off for another year. Tim Ferris, in his book 4-Hour Work Week, calls this creating mini-retirements, where you space out your retirement period all throughout your life instead of having a giant one at the end. When I read that, I got attracted to it, but I never had the courage to actually do it.
*Note: This came from a writing exercise from What Color is Your Parachute? by Richard Nelson Bolles. The instruction was to write about what kind of job you’d want if you could have any job in the world. Instead of one job, I thought of several. I realized that this was very much like my Life Plans series (My Life Plans As of Right Now (2012), Life Plans Progress Report (2014), My Life Plans as of Right Now (2015 version), My Life Plans as of Right Now (2016), Rereading My Diary For Year End Insights (2016)), but maybe it’s a little more ambitious, hence the title*
If I could have any job in the world, I would want to have a regular improv acting job. My group and I perform weekly at a small cafe with a friendly crowd. Each member is paid a fixed talent fee by the restaurant, given a percentage of the ticket sales, and are fed for free. We also go abroad to perform in international festivals and other venues. All expenses are paid (food, transportation, accommodations) , we are given pocket money, and are paid for our performance. During the trip abroad, there is at least one free day for us to shop and our hosts also gladly tour us around the sights in their city.
I began taking improv acting classes around January 2017. It started on a whim or more like a whimper. I was feeling sad and lost because I didn’t know what I was going to do with my life. Perfect timing for a Facebook ad offering improv classes by Third World Improv (a school by the improv group SPIT). Before seeing that ad, I actually took an improv class that SPIT did for the media, back when they weren’t offering classes yet. They were just doing that to promote their shows, and I was one of the lucky lifestyle reporters who got to experience it. I remember enjoying it, and wishing I could take more. I was crestfallen when they said they weren’t offering any. Years passed, and I forgot all about them, but when I saw that Facebook ad, it all came rushing back. I thought, maybe I’ll be less miserable if I took improv.
Looking back, I don’t know why that was enough for me to get from my savings and pay for those classes. Now it’s June 2017, and I’ve had four shows and took two levels of classes. The response towards me has been surprisingly positive. Yet, I’m like, what am I doing? Why am I acting? Am I an actress???? What the fuck? This wasn’t part of the plan.
I don’t know what happened, but now I hate writing. What? But, girl, you’re like writing right now? Ok, let me clarify, I now hate journalistic writing and anything near it. I love writing here in my blog. I can write here all day, and I’d love to do more non-journalistic writing, but I need to work and earn money. Thankfully, I don’t work as a lifestyle journalist anymore, but I do need to accept writing gigs every now and then because my teaching job, which I enjoy, is just part-time.
Sometimes I get excited about certain writing gigs, and I’m starting to pitch story ideas again (because I want to), but, for the most part, I do it because I need money. I mean, I still do my job by passing quality articles, but I must admit that the fire is gone. Friends are saying maybe I just need a break from it (I’m thinking like I need a year, but obviously it’s not happening because I’m still accepting gigs), and then maybe my passion for it will come back. Maybe or maybe not.
I’ve always loved reading self-help books. Recently, there are more and more self-help books in the management section so now I’m reading management books. This is super weird, because if you’ve read To Shift or Not to Shift, you’d know that I took a management course in college, hated it, and then shifted out. I guess I just didn’t get the information related to management that was interesting to me. Anyway, so here I am so pumped up with these management books, but then I have no leadership position. Then I realized something, I can use these concepts to manage myself and my life.
A few years ago, a guy told me he visited my blog and he said, “Wow, ang dami mong blog posts.” I was shocked that he found that impressive. I never even considered that the quantity of my blog posts was in itself an accomplishment. I realized that I should also appreciate my efforts not just my successes. I have written this much and that in itself is worth something.
If you’re an achievement junkie like me, and you also happen to be right smack into your quarter-life crisis, then you’ll understand why I got interested in life coaching. With life coaching, learning who you are and what you should do in life can be guided by a professional. There are several life coaching packages out there in Manila, but none that I’ve heard of that combined it with a travel getaway. That is, not until Kairos.
I got lucky because my cousin, who works at Convergent Consulting, the company behind Kairos, helped me get invited to this relaxing weekend. Convergent Consulting has been in operation for 14 years, and they provide training programs for teams and leaders of top corporations in the country. To celebrate the beginning of their 15th year, they launched Kairos, which is their first attempt to combine travel and life coaching, which they offered for private individuals instead of their usual clientele of companies.