Identity – Age of the Diary

Happiness Tip: I Don’t Know the Future

April 28, 2023

Right now I am taking Coursera’s The Science of Wellbeing for Teens. Ok, I’m not a teen, but I enjoyed the original course, and I wanted to see how it was adjusted for teens. I usually love children’s versions of books like cookbooks or how to make crafts because the instructions are easier. For the teens course, it was pretty good, and there was one advice that stood out. It was to tell oneself “I don’t know the future”.

Cleaning My Room with Psychopaths

July 28, 2021

I had a dream that I was held captive by two psychopaths who were torturing people. One of the psychopaths was a friend of mine, and she promised that they will not torture me. Still, I was afraid, and the way I coped was I kept sleeping, so that I would be free from the nightmarish nature of my reality.

First time I wrote “I am happy”

July 14, 2021

A period of time after being harassed and threatened by my harasser. Diary entry Nov. 8, 2019 Fri 1:01pm (Everyday notebook Vol. 6, Nov. 8, 2019 to Jan 4, 2020). I edited this a bit.

I don’t know why I feel so much better than I have ever had for a long time. It’s like I’m beginning to feel my life again when in the past I was so numb. Nothing special happened yesterday, and yet yesterday I felt happy. I was able to post on my Facebook, “I am happy today”. I haven’t done that in a long time. I thought I’ll never feel that way again, and, sure, I’m still not my perky and excited self because my happiness does have a tinge of sadness or a solemnness at the least, but feeling happy again makes me think that the possibilities are endless. Things that I think weren’t possible can actually happen.

Continuing My Research on Happines When I Feel Like Shit

April 4, 2021

Realized that I Do Have Healthy Coping Mechanisms

January 9, 2021

I recently talked to my mom about my blog post My New Year’s Resolutions: Healthier Coping Mechanisms where I discuss how I realized that I have unhealthy coping mechanisms like stress eating and making waldas. Then she said that I also use walking to self sooth, and then she proceeded to list other things that I do that are healthy self-soothing mechanisms. That’s when I realized that I do have healthy self-soothing mechanisms, and they are: